When nothing seems to go right...

Just burst into tears...because that solves everything!

Things have been stressful at work but exciting at the same time. This week I had an interview go off with one of my contacts and it went very well, I'm hopeful he may get an offer. This week coming up I have three people interviewing. The excitement I feel over this is a lot.

But Friday was stressful and annoying and frustrating all rolled into one.  As you know I'm still contract. Which means no insurance, I have a dentist appointment coming up next Monday and the thought of having to cough up another $100 bucks out of pocket just rubs me the wrong way. But I have a thing about my teeth and I always need to go to my appointments without fail.

My first hire started back at the beginning of December which means my first "commission" for her should have come in my paycheck this week and it didn't. I brought it up to my boss and he said we would talk about it later as I brought it up in front of other people which was probably a mistake, but basically he said because I'm contract and set up on a time sheet that I wasn't set up as the other recruiters which are base salary plus commissions and he said we could probably work it out so that I could just put the hours in as overtime so I got paid. Well that's fine for having one hire, but I could possibly be having quite a few more hires as they give me more and more jobs to work, and seems like a lot of extra leg work to get me paid, why not just set me up to receive commissions. So that kind of annoyed me.

So this is on my mind already on Friday, we get a notification that me and another woman in the admin pool are going to be responsible for all of the paperwork for the new company we acquired. This really sets me off as the new company has two admins and neither one of them are doing any of the paperwork, so now instead of making them actually do it, we have to do it instead. This annoys me mainly because just two weeks ago my boss said he'd like to transition me out of the admin role and into a junior recruiter role so while I am still responsible for the payroll on Monday, he wants me focusing on recruiting the rest of the week. Not easy to do when you just got handed a ton of new admin responsibilities and hey you aren't getting paid for your recruits. Grrrrr

Friday morning on my way into work I left my guy a nice message telling him how proud I was of him for cutting out the full octane soda and switching to diet (big deal) and I hope his week is going well blah blah blah. He's been super stressed with school, work, being on unemployment and it showed when I saw him last, completely stressed out, with me but not mentally there and had gained quite a bit of weight in his stomach area in the short time I hadn't seen him, which just worries me. Anyhow, no biggie, half way through the day I send him a text and he writes back "You must have a lot of free time at work LOL" now, I get it he was kidding but for some reason this totally set me off and I burst into tears and sent him back a pretty nasty message.

The stress is getting to me and of course I started my period which didn't help and to make matters worse I decided to take a look at my taxes.As of right now I owe about 2k. So much for the government helping when you are unemployed for almost an entire year. You get fucked with the big government dildo.

I really want to curl up in the fetal position and give up.