Wednesday, August 27, 2014


I finally certified. I cannot begin to tell you how I burst into tears once I found out I certified. The amount of incredible pressure I felt to certify and get this done was overwhelming. I'm not sure anyone understood in my circle, but knowing that if you didn't hit a certain number or within 3 weeks I'd be unemployed, with no more money in my 401k and not enough quarters for unemployment was just this huge burden.

I am this week still on my training schedule and then next week I start my new work schedule.  I got two free days off so I took them consecutively next week after my days off so I get 4 days in a row. I need it to just breathe and regroup.

The new schedule after that will at least give me a shot at seeing people during the day for a lunch date and on the weekends for bbqs (at least until 4 pm when I have to go into work).

Plus not to get all TMI on you. I'm hoping that that now that there is less stress my stomach will go back to a somewhat normal schedule. Lately anything I eat goes right through me and that is not the way I want to live.

Surprisingly enough I haven't gained any weight. This type of work doesn't allow for "snacking" so it has helped me to stay on an eating schedule. I of course feel a bit fatter due to not moving as much as I want too but I'm slowly but surely getting back into working out as well.

I feel much more positive about everything. The fall is so nice in New England and I'm looking forward to walks with my friend around the lake on the weekends again and just kind of enjoying being outside without sweating.

Thanks for all my followers for hanging in there with me through all my whiney, feeling sorry for myself posts.  I feel so much better getting on the other side of this training and knowing I have a permanent job now.

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I'm currently reading this book Digestive Health with Real Food has anyone read it? I'm really trying to pinpoint what triggers my body. I had IBS years ago when I was married, but it literally did so much better when I got divorced, but then I had my gall bladder removed and since then I have bouts of trouble with the digestive track, but these last 3 months, exasperated by the stress I was under, I couldn't eat ANYTHING without running to the bathroom. I would really like to find my triggers and stay away from them so I don't have to be seated near a restroom within 20 mins of consuming a meal.

Anyone else have similar digestive issues? How did you cope? What were your triggers?

Monday, August 4, 2014

In Hiding

It's been several weeks since I last posted. I kind of consider myself hibernating, or in hiding if you will.

I have yet to get used to my new schedule, when I get off of work, I can't go right to bed, so some nights I stay up until 11, 12, 1 am depends on what is going on, and then getting out of bed in the morning is equally as difficult.

I cannot get out of my own way, I feel like a drone, there are days I don't go outside because by the time I get out of bed, shower and start functioning I have to go to work.

Every week I say I'm going to start working out, and then I just lay in bed.

My cousin announced she was pregnant. I barely made it out of my parents house without bursting into tears. My mother is so excited about a new baby in the family and my cousin is my parents godchild and as happy as I am for her, I cannot help feeling bad about it for myself. Selfish I guess but as my prospects for ever having my own child dwindle further along, announcements and painting on a smile and a "I'm so happy for you" gets harder and harder, especially when my Mother is just over the moon about it and can't stop talking about it.

I don't know how to get myself out of this funk and I think I waited to post for so long because I hate to whine and feel sorry for myself.

Financially things are tough again due to some medical bills that I have to pay and my stomach has been a mess again stressing out about money. I'm reading a new book about trying to pinpoint what foods really don't agree with my stomach.

I feel like I need some spiritual advisor to come and do some ritual in my house or over me to get rid of some negative energy.

How is the summer going for everyone here? Please share some happy news you have going on, maybe some of your happiness will rub off on me.

Monday, June 9, 2014

Anxiety Attack

I'm having a mild anxiety attack. Start my training tomorrow for my new job and I am so nervous, not because I think the job will be difficult, but because if I don't pass the training I have no job.  So that in itself is what is making me nervous, the thought of being unemployed again in 12 weeks, just uggh...creates my heart to palpitate.

My foot is still healing but I'm finally able to walk on it without crutches or the air cast. I tried to do some working out but couldn't do any bouncing at all. So this week is the week I'm back in the saddle with truly working out. Nothing like doing everything at once right? New job and new workout schedule. Go big or go home. LOL

Watching NY Ink and LA Ink on Netflix makes me already want another tattoo. Although I just got one back in February, there was such a big amount of time between my second and third I forgot how awesome it feels to get tattooed so I am definitely up for my 4th already.

Had a great Sunday. My cousin and his family were up from Alabama so we went to visit and have a big birthday party for the kids. It was so fun and it was way too short of a time to see them. I love him and his family is amazing, I love them all. I wish they lived closer. They are here all week but unfortunately starting the new job this week so Sunday was my only time to be able to see them.

It's starting to get warm up here and as usual my central air conditioning unit isn't turning on. This happens every Spring, I can't get it to kick on. I just don't have the cash to have anyone come out, so I guess I will just suffer through. I see many cold showers in my future.

So since I am starting the new job there won't be any summer vacations this year for me, but what about all my readers, do you do fun things in the summertime, do you have a yearly spot you travel too?

Fingers crossed for StarvingBitch...she'll need all the support she can get!

Monday, May 26, 2014

Memorial Day

Just wanted to pop over and say Hi to everyone on this beautiful Memorial Day. In the midst of all your barbecuing, beach going and fun activities, please try to remember the reason for the day. To remember those that have fought and died for our country. We can never repay them for their ultimate sacrifice but we can honor their memory.

Dad came over this morning to put my desk together for the new job, helped him carry it upstairs and was sitting on the floor helping him put all the parts out and got up to get him a hammer no sooner did I stand up I had massive muscle spasms in my lower back on the left side (good foot). They were so strong, I started sweating and I thought I was going to pass out, I laid down on my bed and had to hold back a wave of nausea that ran over me. Holy crap! No fun. Is this what happens when you get old??? The only thing I can think of is because my other foot is still hurt from the fall that I'm overcompensating and favoring it so much that I'm putting my entire alignment out of whack. I don't know but I don't want to experience that again.

It was probably best I didn't help dad anyhow, he has the shortest fuse of a temper and I wasn't there to aggravate him. HA!

Sunday we had family over and made the most delicious Chicken with Fruit Salsa. Yum. Recipe Below for anyone that wants to try it.

Peanut Ginger Chicken with California Salsa

Let the spicy peanut butter marinade really soak in. (overnight 24 hours is the best)

12 boneless/ skinless chix thighs (3lbs)
1/2 cup hot water
1/3 cup creamy peanut butter
1/4 cup of chili sauce
1/4 cup soy sauce
2 tbsp salad oil
2 tbsp vinegar
4 cloves of garlic, minced
2 tsp grated ginger root or 1/2 tsp ground ginger
1/4 tsp ground red pepper

(Calif. Salsa) - Be creative I always add diff fruits & veggies

1 cup chopped fresh fruit such as peeled peaches, nectarines, pears or plumbs (or green apple, red/ green apple)
1 cup chopped seeded cucumber
2 tbsp thinly sliced green onion (or red onions & green pepper)
2 tbsp snipped parsley or cilantro - (never used parsley always cilantro "YUMMY")
1 tbsp sugar
1tbsp salad oil
1tbsp vinegar
Ti leaves (optional)

I always double up both the marinade for chix and the fruit salsa because it tastes great on pork chops or any chicken really.

For marinade:  in a small mixing bowl gradually stir hot water into peanut butter, stir in chili sauce, soy, oil, vinegar, garlic, ginger root or ground ginger and red pepper.

Place chicken in a plastic bag set in a shallow bowl, pour marinade over chix seal and turn to coat chill for 12-24 hours turning the bag occasionally .

For salsa:  mix fruit, veggies, vinegar & sugar

And for a little fun, why not pop over to they are having a Grill Giveaway and some of them are different (pizza oven anyone?) Just pop over using this link and throw your hat in the ring to win one of the grills and if you don't choose to keep the winnings for yourself their is always Father's Day.

Hope you all enjoyed the long weekend with friends and family and hugged everyone a little closer.  Hopefully in a couple days my back will feel better, the foot is feeling tons better and I know I can do Slim in 6 as long as I'm not bouncing on it. I feel so old.

What do you do on Memorial Day?

Sunday, May 18, 2014

Chinese Torture and Another Birthday in the Tank

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Been seeing my acupuncturist for some anxiety and stress related stomach issues for the last month. The end of April I sprained my ankle pretty darn good, so the first week I went to acupuncture after the injury she poured some smelly herbs (kind of smelled like wintergreen to me) on my foot, added some needles to the area and then after the acupuncture was complete proceeded to do acupressure on the spot. OMG I was lifting out of the seat. Now I love a good massage but when your foot is sprained and very tender to the touch I actually dubbed it Chinese Torture. She laughed very hard when I suggested this is what they do to people in jail in China. 

Despite my cries of protest, it actually has helped to heal my foot much faster. My foot is less swollen and I can walk without my crutches and I am no longer wearing the air cast. I'm still limping a bit, but it's better everyday and I feel good about it. This week was week two of the acupressure and it was just as painful as the first time she did it.

Saturday arrives...quickly. Forty One. I am now completely over that big hill and yet I feel meh nothing really that bad about it. I got up at the crack of ass (6:35) for a 7 am hair appointment. I was hoping it was just a cut as I didn't sleep well so I wanted to go back to bed after the appointment, but low and behold it was a color and cut so I was there a lot longer than expected. But a nice cut and a nice shade of red later I'm all dolled up.

Okay I still went home and tried to go back to sleep but after laying there for a while I couldn't fall asleep.  Went out to dinner with the folks and stopped at one of my favorite bakeries to pick up a lemon tartlet for my dessert. (although I still haven't eaten it). My mom bought dad some coconut macaroons so I grabbed a couple.

In the middle of the night SOMEONE got up, chewed through the Ziploc bag and had herself a coconut macaroon to get in on the celebration.

 Now I don't want to point fingers at any particular pet in my home, but I have a 50/50 shot at to whom made her late night cookie run. Evie. The number one suspect. Since I've caught her red-pawed in the middle of the night chowing down on a loaf of bread and having seen the after-affects of her licking pizza sauce off of a gluten free pizza about to go in the oven. I know she is the culprit. She thinks she's a dog and you would think I never feed her.

Since I have a couple more weeks before I start the new job I am going to focus on the weight loss, I dropped a couple pounds despite not being able to work out due to my foot, so I am going to attempt getting back into my workouts, if I need to lean on a chair when I have to balance on the bad foot I will do so.

I'm feeling less anxious about things, I passed my background check for the job and so now I just gotta find myself a desk that will fit two monitors and just wait to start training. Yikes! A whole new world, and despite the pretty big pay-cut I am trying to think positively and say I'm going to rock the job so well I will make incentives every month.

The parents got me a gift of cash (the gift that keeps on giving) so I can use it to buy new tires for my inspection coming up this week. Gotta love it!  What more can a girl ask for, for her birthday...TIRES!

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Don't Forget about Mom!

Wow. Mother's Day snuck up on me, anyone else? I feel like the last few months, despite being home unemployed have FLOWN by.

So I was looking to get my Mother something but she has everything, does this happen to anyone else? The older your parents get the harder it is to buy them gifts, because when they want something they just buy it for themselves.

Step in the Donate Fruit website. Honestly it's a give back program. For every gift you purchase, whatever the total weight is, they match that weight in free fruits donated to a food bank. Kind of cool huh?


I got her this little nibbler selection, comes with Rosemary Artisan Crackers, Smoked Dried Salami, Pears and Chocolate Truffle Cherries. This whole selection was 30 bucks and it weighed 5 lbs so the organization will donate 5 lbs of fresh fruit to a local food bank.

Plus now my parents can go on some cute little picnic together and feed each other pears (I just threw up in my mouth a little).

Whatever you do...Make Mom feel special this weekend. She gave you the best gift of all. Life.

Friday, May 2, 2014

The Icing on the Sh*t Cake of 2014

Things have been busy in the last couple weeks.

I finally got a job interview out of the months and months of sending out resumes and not receiving even a phone call or interview.  So I had a phone interview and then set up for a skype webcam interview.

I went to acupuncture to work on my stomach as the stress always effects my digestive system.  While there I told her about how my hip/leg was throbbing, due to my car accident several years ago when the barometer changes and especially when it rains my hip and leg throb and nothing helps and since its spring in New England it has been raining all week.

After I got done my hour appointment she had me lay on my side and worked on my leg and hip, so an hour appointment turned into two.  I felt so much better when I left. Stopped at the store to pick up some stuff, grabbed something for lunch as I hadn't eaten all day and it was now after one. Stopped at my parents to feed their cats (They are on vacation). Arrive home, run upstairs to change and as I'm coming down the stairs misjudged the bottom of the stairs and promptly fell and heard my ankle snap.

One ambulance ride, and some x-rays (that I cannot afford as I have no insurance) later it's just a very bad sprain.  Now I am on crutches.

When I got home I just sat on the couch and cried. 2014 has not been my year and I'm trying desperately to hang on.

I did get offered the job, the pay is much less than I would choose, but right now beggars can't be choosers. I will keep my eye out for something else, training starts in June, hopefully I don't fall down a well in the meantime.